I won’t say a word to you because every time I do, I lay awake at night and regret it. There’s been blood in my mouth from all the times that I’ve bit my tongue. I have to be silent, bide my time. I have to keep my mouth shut more and just take everything in. Leave you be. Try to move on. Then maybe, I will gain some clarity.
And the right words may come to me. Or maybe, I’ll realize there really is nothing left to say.
and I’m just truly afraid of that."